“God make me an open vessel through which the waters of your love flow freely.
Let your love move through me and out into my world touching everyone I come in contact with.
Express your joy through the special talents you have given me so that others may come to know your presence in their own lives
by witnessing your presence in mine. Amen”
This is a prayer I say every morning reminding me to watch what I say and do, knowing that sometimes the only church I see is in me.
As my bio says, I have been a teacher for 20 years. I am one of only six black teachers at Warren G. Harding.
There should be more, but not enough of us want to be teachers. Although I liege a pretty good life, it by no means is the path to riches and fame, but it is one of the most important jobs there is.
I love shows were people can go back in time. Shows like Timeless (a newer show), Quantam Leap, the movie Back to the Future, but there is always one problem. Changing the past can alter the future, and I’m super content where I have ended thus far. But these shows have also shown me that no matter how you try to change things, what is meant to be will be, so with that in mind, I would love to go back and help out young Kendra.
Dear 6 year old Kendra,
Don’t worry! You’ll have tons of Christmas gifts. Not one Christmas will ever go by where you won’t receive any. Sometimes you’ll get gifts weeks after Christmas because your mom will forget that she hid them!
And when offered that opportunity to sing that solo, take it. You don’t sound any worse than the others.
Now, mom, Pastor Faulkner, don’t’ go get any ideas about asking 43 year old Kendra to sing no solo. I know my lane and I stay in it!!
You are a rock star. You are a 100 watt bulb and everyone doesn’t appreciate your brightness. For some it might be blinding, but that isn’t your fault. (you are your father’s child Chuckina) misunderstood by many, your passionate nature misunderstood) Never ever ever dull your light. No lamp shade, none of that. And don’t let you others try to turn you down, (except the twin. She’s allowed) If people don’t like your shine, they better wear shades… And don’t you go and give them yours! (you’re also your mother’s child) sometimes giving too much and not keeping any good for yourself.
John 15:18 (with Matta-rephrasing)
There were people who hated Jesus, so what makes you think everybody is gonna like you?! They won’t. And that’s okay. (one less person to invite to the wedding) Everything ain’t for everybody. Don’t try to figure out why. There are people out there who don’t like chocolate. Some things are just beyond comprehension!
I know that you’ve spent so much of your life crippled by anxiety and fear. There are things you’ve wanted to do, but you let fear win. Thank God, you will get help and have overcome all anxiety and fear. There was a time in your life when you would have had an anxiety attack THINKING about standing in front of people, but now you know,
Not to be anxious about anything, but allow the peace of God, to guard your heart and your mind in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
You understand that God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7
You are strong and courageous. You will NOT be terrified; you will NOT be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherEVER you go. Joshua 1:9
Things will happen to you that were meant to crush you. That would crush the average person. You are not the average person. God got you. Weapons will form. They will not prosper.
As you grow, you will notice that God does hear you when you pray. He does. You will look back on your life and see all of the times your prayers were answered.
Even when you think he’s forgotten you, he will show you that he heard each and prayer. You’re gonna pray about some things and assume that he’s said “no” when he’s really said, “not yet.” It might be years later. I know you’re not the most patient person, but just wait. God has a great sense of humor. You’ll see…
(shout out to King and Zo!)
Like the Langston Hughes poem, Your life will not be no crystal stair,
It will have tacks in it, And splinters,
And boards torn up, but you will be ok. You’ll be surrounded by people who will sweep up those tacks and remove your splinters and fix those boards. He’ll even give you someone to carry you up those stairs. (shout out to Rob)
In your life, you’ll lose a LOT, but you’ll gain even more.
Understand this, every single thing that has ever happened in your life is preparing you for a moment that is yet to come.
You’ll be ok.
You’ll be better than ok.
You will be happy.
So Kendra, keep living.
Love you, girl!